My New Home

Its official! I am now living as an idependent woman in my cute apartment. I am absolutely loving it at this point in time. All I have left to do is finish hanging my wall decorations and then it is complete :-) I figure that I better enjoy every moment I have because the next step for a living situation will be with my future husband and hopefully eventually children. Then, all privacy dissappears! I can only agree to this because I remember all the times I would interrupt my parents while they were showering, using the bathroom, watching tv and even sleeping! I find myself looking around my apartment and then smiling. After I do the hanging today I will take pics and post it on facebook to share with everyone. I am very proud of this! Come over anytime. Mi Casa es Su Casa ;-)

New Beginings

In everyones life one door closes and another opens. I have made a decision that will take me on another journey in my life. I am going to branch out and move into my own place. It will be sad to not see Candi and Caleb everyday, but it is something that will make us all grow.
I have lived at 349 George Street for a little over 2 years and let me tell you, it has a lot of fabulous and unforgetable memories in it. It started out with 5 of us when I first moved in and, then 6, then it dropped down to 3. Out of all of those changes, the 3 of us was the best! Candi and Caleb are two of my greatest friends and they are also apart of my family. In some ways, they have helped shape me into the woman I am today.
I was a little worried that when the time came that I would decide to branch out, that they would have been a little dissappointed. I was wrong of course. The whole idea will be great for all of us. Candi and Caleb have been married for almost 1 year and are starting the process of starting their own family. It is time for them to grow as a married couple without a single girl living with them :-) It is also time for me to experience some more independence. This, I am very eager and excited about.
I have emailed the company I formerly rented off of. Right now there are 2 apartments available at this time. Super exciting. I am hoping to sometime next week get a tour of them. It wouldnt be until mid-april that I would want to move in. I need some time to organize all of my stuff and still pay the rent at 349 for April. I am dreading the move itself, but I am excited to be somewhere new and decorate it and make it MY OWN. Not as exciting as owning my own place, but its the next best thing.
I am going to miss seeing Candi and Caleb everyday, but I know our friendship is so much more than just a friendship and that we will keep close touch and hopefully see eachother often.
Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I makes these changes in my life.

Celebrity Date

So, I was watching Live with Regis and Kelly today and they are having a contest for a date with Taylor Hicks. I thought, what the hell lets apply! So, I made an account on their website and answered all their questions for the contest. What are the chances that I will win? Very slim! But wouldn't it be so cool to say that I went on a date with Taylor Hicks? Sure, it isn't Brad Pitt, but he is a winner of American Idol. That would be kick ass! I highly doubt I win, but just the thought will be exciting enough for me. I know, I'm silly, but its fun!

I must be dreamin

It is official! I am going to visit Carlyn in Italy May 6-16th! Somebody pinch me. It feels like a dream. Nothing this exciting happens to me! If it weren't for Candi encouraging me and printing out an application for a passport, I probably would never had considered it.
I don't know what I am more excited about. Its all so exciting. I am just excited to be able to leave my life in the states behind me for a few days and take it all in. I hope that I have a growing experience and that it helps me to figure my life out a little better.
I sent my application for my passport in and should hopefully get it in 2 weeks. I booked my flights today. Now, its just the waiting game. I can't wait to go and I am excited to share my experience with everyone.

I don't want a pitty party

For the most part, I feel like I have been blessed with a great life. I have not had any tragic events in my life (with the exception of deaths of family/friends). I have an awesome and loving family and a great network of friends. I wouldn't change them for anything in the world. I have a great stable job, that when its all said and done, I absolutely love. I guess I am just feeling like my life is at a standstill.
One night, by best friend asked me if I was okay. Feeling that I was, I responded with a yes. Then as I was laying in bed, doing my nightly praying, I thought about what she asked me. A lightbulb went off and I thought to myself...I am depressed. I have never been depressed and therefore didn't know what it felt like to be depressed. It took that simple little question she asked for me to realize that I had a problem.
Where is the excitement in my life? I feel that all I do is eat, sleep, work, do laundry, house work, and errands. Thats what my life consists of! What can I do to bring some excitement in my life? I am running out of ideas. Now, I am not asking for anything extreme. I enjoy going out with my friends every once and a while, but the whole bar scene just isnt as appealing as it was a year ago. I guess there comes a time in ones life when they outgrow that, and luckily mine ended in my early twenties.
Anyways, if anyone has any ideas please share them with me. I love my life, I really do. I just need something with a little excitement!

The Meaning of Christmas

With Christmas approaching I have been doing a lot of thinking. Do people know the true meaning of Christmas? Do they realize what Christmas day actually is? Do they think it is a day of giving gifts and spending time with family? Is it just a day off work that you are being paid for? Is it a day you get presents from others? Some people may consider those the definition of Christmas. The true meaning of Christmas is the day Jesus Christ was born. It is sad to think that people forget this! It makes me sad in a way. If it weren't for God creating Jesus Christ, this day would never be celebrated!!! Think about it! It is a religious holiday that is celebrated every year, even by non-believers. I guess people can define Christmas as whatever they want it to be. And thats okay. But I celebrate it as Jesus' Birthday!

"This is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about: His mother Mary was pledged to be married to Joseph, but before they came together, she found to be with child through the Holy Spirit. Because Joseph her husband was a righteous man and did not want to expose her to public disgrace, he had in mind to divorce her quietly. But after he had considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, "Jospeh son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit, She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins." All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet: "The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel" which means "God with us." When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife. But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus." Matther 1:18-25

All I ask is that when you are spending time with your family, opening gifts, and eating yummy Christmas dinner, that you remember why this day is celebrated. May God Bless all of you. Have a Merry Christmas!!!

My Angel

Most every person in this world would say that they have the greatest Grandmother in the world. They would be crazy if they didn't! But, I truely believe in my heart that My Mom Mom is the most wonderful, loving and caring woman in my life. Sure, there are plenty of women in my life who are those things, but Mom Mom is extra special in her own way.
Mom Mom (aka Mary Jane) is a 70 year old woman who has been through more in her lifetime than I could ever imagine. She lost her father at the age of 7, lost her mother when she was only 50 years of age, lost her 2 year old 1st great grandson, lost her husband a few months shy of their 48th wedding anniversary. She has survived muti-organ failure. She is living with Parkinsons disease, COPD and Emphysema (which causes her to have to wear 8liters of oxygen). I am sure there is much more, but I am sure the point has been made. She told me the other day that she is the oldest of her family dead or alive. That is amazing. Through all of this she always seems to put everyone first and find the best in every situation.
She calls me her Angel. I feel very blessed for her to call me her angel, when she has 8 other grandchilden that she could call her Angel. I guess this is just our special little bond that only she and I share. Wow! What a bond this is! The truth is, she is MY ANGEL! She has been by my side since I was born. When I was 4 or 5 I was diagnosed with Ryes Syndrome, a child disease that I almost died from. My most vivid memory of that time is my Angel staying with me most, if not every night while I was in the hospital. When I was well enough to remember, she and I went to the kids playroom and played pick up sticks. If I close my eyes, I can see us sitting at the little table playing them now. During school if I had the flu, she and my Grandad would watch me for the day. She was not only my Mom Mom growing up, she was my babysitter! She has been a huge impact on my life.
I know it is hard to imagine, but there will be a time when God will need a perfect Angel and will bring her to heaven. Everybody leaves the earth at some point in their life. I want to be selfish and say no, you can't ever take her, she is mine! We all know that won't happen. The only thing I can do is cherish every moment and every memory I have with her. Continue to enjoy her love and company.

Mom Mom: I love you So much. Words can not describe the love my heart has for you. Thank you for being such a blessing in my life. If I had to pick one favorite memory with you, I couldn't because they are all my favorite. You are an Angel. You are my Angel. I miss you when I am not with you and I enjoy the time we do get to spend with eachother. I will see you soon! I love you! I love you! I love you!